Locomotivation

There's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home...

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 09:08:03 +0200

Dear Blog
Had this sudden urge to write again… So much has been going on and I think I stopped writing because I couldn’t put what I was feeling down.. Insecurities, time, medium and a proper emotional outlet that I could use to depict my current state via my blog.

Right now Im in a very nostalgic state that is making me relate and embrace a lot of incidents that have happened in my past… im missing my ex girlfriends, ex lovers, ex friends, ex (lack of) responsibilities, ex emotions that I haven’t felt in so long.

Everything is making me sick… im sick of the routines have been set for all of us and how we are compelled to follow them. Im sick of fake people… who spend NO time in discovering themselves or their purpose for being on this planet, it pisses me off how everyone embraces someone else’s pre planned life structure as one’s own. Thankfully im surrounded with some wonderful people who are so animated and so full of life… if not for my friends I don’t know where in the world I will be…

Not the best comeback post… but im sure it will be much brighter very soon. Its good to be home…

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December? So Sonn???

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 10:13:47 +0100

Dear Blog!

Its been a long time! i have been in touch with good ol blogland but for the past 2 months or so i just didnt feel like writing.

So lets get down to business...

Im slowly but surely getting over the trauma caused by my ex. Its still pretty hard but im getting through it and we havent spoken for over one and a half months... and i really dont know if we ever will. Frankly i dont know what she is going through or feeling. is she missing me? has she completely wiped me out of her head? does she treasure those years we were together? does she ever wonder what it would have been like if we had to freedom to be together? Frankly i think she has wiped me out completely and thats the reality ill have to accept for me to have a sane life. i still miss her.. so much... I shall refer to my ex as bunny ex in future.

i also realised that its 2 more weeks for the year to end! reflecting back, this year has not been the best of years.. i dont think it has been for a lot of people. i lost a lot of my friends due to petty issues (i guess they never were because when push came to shove everything crumbled)

My sex life has been....interesting... im still dating the girl and spend a lot of time with her. there never was a dry period this year but it has been with the same person and im not used to that!!! so you get that feeling like something is missing but i can live with it!

my financial situ is probably the worst! im in so much credit card debt i cant wait to pay it off as soon as i get a lump sum of money... i should be a much happier and relived person then

anyways.. i just wanted to say hi to my good ol blog! hope everyone out there is having an awesome december!

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Mon, 15 Dec 2008 09:45:21 +0100

Dear Blog! Its been a long time! i have been in touch with good ol blogland but for the past 2 months or so i just didnt feel like writing. So lets get down to business... Im slowly but surely getting over the trauma caused by my ex. Its still pretty hard but im getting through it and we havent spoken for over one and a half months... and i really dont know if we ever will. Frankly i dont know what she is going through or feeling. is she missing me? has she completely wiped me out of he
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Things to know

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 20:32:50 +0100

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour
(Don't try this at home,maybe at work)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
(Honey, I'm home. What the...?!)

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
(30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.(Hmmmmmm......)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)

Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.
(Okay, so that would be a good thing)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.(I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains..
(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

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Mirrors Do Lie - The Real Me!

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 06:35:42 +0200

Dear Blog!

Ever wondered about the hundreds of different roles that all of us have to play in our day to day, tedious lives? No matter how honest you are with any other person you always have to wear a mask to be with, get along with, hang around, handle, or survive in a world full of diverse personalities and characters. for an example - you cannot be like you are with your best friend when you are with a boss in office. We constantly try to give a certain image of ourselves to whoever we come to face with and that too can depend on person to person and what We think is best after us judging what that person may like (or dont like)

Does anybody get what im saying???!!!!

What my point is that along this huge act, do we ever try to reflect who WE really are? or is the REAL ME an accumulation of all the different acts we embrace to get along with the other people in our lives?
Its really amazing how we have found some order amidst the chaos that goes on in our minds...millions of thoughts rushing across every second, millions of emotions, and many characters we wish that we were and we want to embrace - probably because we think its cool and probably to better ourselves. Its proven that the brain is an organ that administers chaos! and we are constantly trying to keep order in society.. amidst our chaotic nature.

aint that why it feels so good to let loose or just be free?!

I think thats why we are all here blogging our hearts out. we need to let lose, be free, so that everyone can see the REAL ME

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Wise Words

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 10:55:00 +0200

1. When I was born, I was given a choice - A big dick or a good memory. I don't remember what I chose.

2. Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory..

3. A wife is a sex object. Every time you ask for sex, she objects.

4. Impotence: Nature's way of saying 'No hard feelings....'

5. There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - 'don't' and 'stop', unless they are used together.

6. Panties: Not the best thing on earth, but next to the best thing on
earth.

7. There are three stages of sex in a man's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.

8. Virginity can be cured.

9. Virginity is not dignity, its lack of opportunity.

10. Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner,
you'd better have a good hand.

11. I tried phone sex once but the holes in the dialer were too small.

12. Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.

13. Q: What's an Australian kiss?
A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.

14. A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy
with the Hole and she was happy with the Thing.

15. Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a mans life?
A: Life sucks, job sucks and the wife doesn't.

16. Q: Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?
A: Breasts don't have eyes.

17. Despite the old saying, 'Don't take your troubles to bed', many men
still sleep with their wives!!

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All i want is you...

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 04:13:38 +0200

Dear Blog!

its early morning and im at work. Its my birthday and for once i have NOTHING planned. mainly because my close friends are not in the country and nothing really fell in place to create and environment where i want to celebrate all day!

Thinking back my birthdays have been quite hectic. the one common thing about the past 10 years or so is that ive always had a girl in my life and for as long as i can remember when they do ask "what shall i get you for your birthday?" i always reply " i want you!"

which resulted in my Ex's wrapping them up (with ribons and a little paper arranging a get away for the two of us to plain saty in and have sex all day! and you know what, those memories are just insane and makes me miss my 2 Ex's so much.

The girl is quite excited about giving what she got to me today but i guess she will have to wait till evening bacause we both are working.. probably might end up doing dinner..hmmmmmmmm....maybe things might get rowdy and intoxicating in the evening! hehehe... i certainly hope so!

Im getting old! and its running away with the time, birthdays seem to come much quicker now than when you were in your teens or early 20's

before i know it i will be 30!!! Yikes!

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Life - Why is it so hard now? Where are we going?

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 12:11:03 +0200

Dear Blog

you just cant help but think how hard life gets the older you get. by no means im complaining but just an observation made that can be applied to anything in life i guess - when you are young, the fun you have, your freedom, your thinking is somewhat limited, hence your problems are also very limited... more the fun, mind and age develops along that comes the developing (and sometimes overwhelming) problems as well.

I havent had a good month, financially, emotionally and spiritually. I think i will have to find another line of work. because the automobile industry here is just going down the dumps with the increasing fuel prices and the thumping vehicle tax. emotionally i have been fighting with the girl a lot over trivial issues that i guess are important and we havent had good sex in about a couple of weeks! (ughh... feel like a married couple) but we have reconciled and the chemistry is slowly building, so i guess thats a good thing.

Spiritually i feel the worst! i know i have a lot of areas and talents that i can develop and take to the next level but im not doing jack about it! i met so many wonderful people in the Arugam bay trip that i felt like a worthless retard. and they dont have superpowers or something i dont. its just that they have developed their strengths and they have applied it to the social system and most of them dont do a 9-5 job but are sorted than most people i know who depend on degrees and paper qualifications to get somewhere in society. so i want to make it a point to first build up some physical resilience by swimming! i want to get around to do that on saturday! and i want to seriously spend some time dedicated to some talents that i KNOW im good at like - singing, music, art and poetry. The system over here does not support any form of art, and most artists are nurturing their craft out of their own will because its not at all lucrative monitory wise (unless you are DAMN good! and that consists of one or two people)

so wish me luck in my search for myself, because i have realised by working, fueling and running the machine it erases all your individuality and happiness from your life. i want to LIVE whatever amount of time i have in this world and make all the people around me happy. the only way you can do this is if you understand who you are and the perfect balance with the social machine and that extra aspect of life that has been left out, missed or not associated with the normal trend and function of the system!

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