Locomotivation

Its been a long time! i have been in touch with good ol blogland but for the past 2 months or so i just didnt feel like writing.

So lets get down to business...

Im slowly but surely getting over the trauma caused by my ex. Its still pretty hard but im getting through it and we havent spoken for over one and a half months... and i really dont know if we ever will. Frankly i dont know what she is going through or feeling. is she missing me? has she completely wiped me out of her head? does she treasure those years we were together? does she ever wonder what it would have been like if we had to freedom to be together? Frankly i think she has wiped me out completely and thats the reality ill have to accept for me to have a sane life. i still miss her.. so much... I shall refer to my ex as bunny ex in future.

i also realised that its 2 more weeks for the year to end! reflecting back, this year has not been the best of years.. i dont think it has been for a lot of people. i lost a lot of my friends due to petty issues (i guess they never were because when push came to shove everything crumbled)

My sex life has been....interesting... im still dating the girl and spend a lot of time with her. there never was a dry period this year but it has been with the same person and im not used to that!!! so you get that feeling like something is missing but i can live with it!

my financial situ is probably the worst! im in so much credit card debt i cant wait to pay it off as soon as i get a lump sum of money... i should be a much happier and relived person then